Little Moments

We go through our daily life without much thought. We get up, get the little ones up, and get ready for work. We know what to do and when to do it. Yet at times we think, what else is there? Our lives go stagnant yet we pretend like we don’t know why. 

When did we get so caught up in our lives that we actually forgot to live and enjoy it? We tend to live to survive and not much more. The journey of life should be an adventure, so why don’t we live it as one?

Our daily routines have ourselves hostage because we put ourselves in that situation. So instead of doing the daily grind day in and day out let’s start living with purpose again!  Do something new each day, find a new hobby, or even try out a new place to eat! 

It’s time to enjoy life again, we only have one so let’s make it the best possible! 

Life Changing Moments

As my graduation from my University approaches I started thinking about what how much I fought to get where I am. Now let’s take a step back a few years.

High school was never easy for me. Fitting in wasn’t my thing, it was harder than what others may have gone through. Being biracial was hard because I didn’t just fit into one group, I mostly had to pick and choose. Being teased about it didn’t make it much easier. I ended up learning it never mattered what I looked on the exterior what what I had to offer from interior.  It prepared me for the journey that I would have to take.

Back to the present.

I have honestly let the negativity I have experienced fuel my ambitions in life. If someone said I couldn’t do it, I’d prove them wrong no matter how long it took me. I had to prove to myself that I could do it. Leaving my abusive ex husband was my biggest test of all. I never had the intention of letting anyone see me fail, especially him. I took control of my life for the first time in years. We can get through anything in life, we have the strength within us to do so. We just have to believe it!

We will always come across conflict and turbulence in life. Getting there in one piece usually never happens, it’s just an extra journey. I see it as a scenic route at this point in life. We will end up getting to our destination in our own time, we just have to enjoy the journey. We can’t have a beautiful garden without a few rain showers along the way and when it blooms it will the most beautiful view you have ever seen.

Beginnings

We all seem to talk about the ” new year, new me” around this time of year. What does that truly mean? Do we change who we are? Do we travel more? Do we lose the 10 pounds we’ve been talk about all of 2017? (Yes that was me)

We don’t necessarily have to change who we are on the inside or change what we look like from the outside to achieve a new sense of life. We also don’t have to close the book of the previously year like it never happened. We can simply write a continuation to our story. Some of us may have had a bad year and some of us may have had a wonderful year. No matter the outcome we all made it through. It does not matter how many times we fell but instead how many times we got back up. 

We all have different goals we want to accomplish this year. 

We all have have different journeys to take this year.

Continue your story and let it be a great one this year! 

 

New Year Thoughts

For most of us the New Year is the a new beginning, closing one book and starting another. We’ve all heard it before from most people around us, sticking to a diet and losing weight seems to be the highlight of everyone’s New Years resolution. I’m not one to make New Year’s resolutions because I’m never able to stick to them past the first month. Then comes feeling bad for yourself because you couldn’t keep up with the goal you made. Seems like a never ending cycle each year.

Yet, this year is a bit different for me. Overcoming an awful marriage, divorce, and health problems, I feel like I took on the world and never realized I did. My 2017 resolution wasn’t being the conqueror of obstacles in my way, yet here I am. Most of our resoulstions we make fall between weight loss or money. Instead of focusing on materialistic or concentrating on how we look let us focus on what we have and what we have to gain from 2018.

My only resolution for 2018 is to enjoy life. Sounds pretty simple for most but is truly something I have yet to do since my divorce and even before that. I tend to worry about what is to come before it even happens which leads to stress which is something we all know about. If we don’t enjoy the now, how will we enjoy the blessings coming our way? Enjoy the little things, make memories, and enjoy what 2018 has to offer us.

I truly hope 2018 is a great year for all!

The Future, Don’t Stress

The more I think about the future the more excited I get about it. Sometimes the future can scare us, give us anxiety, or give us joy. Sometimes it can do all of the above. I have had a habit of thinking of the negative that can happen instead of the good. It’s always been a habit of mine, some of my life events just encouraged that aspect of my life to stay longer than it should. With graduation closing on in I have only thinking of the positive things to come and for once I haven’t second guessed myself by it. There is always something positive to look forward to. We have to find the rainbow between the storms. It may not always be easy but even the lightning can guide us. Seek happiness when thinking of the future. You never truly know the blessings coming your way. 

Halloween Is Upon Us Again

Halloween is one of favorite yet scary holidays for me. Let me explain! I love Halloween because I love to see the creativity of others around me when it comes to costumes and of course the candy. Yet, I am the biggest child when it comes to haunted houses and scary movies. You won’t find me inside a haunted house and I’ll probably be covering my eyes if I happen to watch a scary movie. BUT it is still one of my top holiday’s to celebrate, yes I know the struggle is real. So today, as we go out with the ghouls and witches of the night please stay safe. Keep an eye on the little ones and please don’t drink and drive after those Halloween parties. Enjoy the festivities and watch out for what lurks in the darkness! 

Circle of Life

So something happened today that I couldn’t help but share with you. Have you ever been disappointed at joy that felt like it was stolen from you? Like it was turn from you when you wished for it so? 

This happened to me today. I thought for the better half of October that there was a possibility that I could be pregnant. The thought of it for my boyfriend and I brought us nothing but joy. So why not be excited about the thought of a little blessing. To my dismay, we aren’t. I felt angry, sad, and just about every other emotion out there you could think of. Why? Why was that little piece of joy taken from us? I was at a point where I didn’t want to think and I may never understand how my broken heart is apart of God’s plan. 

So instead of feeding into the emotions too much I had to go outside and just breathe and listen. Listen to the quiet, so the quiet can calm my sadness and calm my heart. I now understand that it is simply not our time yet. Patience isn’t my strong suit in life but I know I can’t rush this in our life. I don’t blame myself, my love, or God. 

Waiting for that positive sign on a pregnancy test can be the most heartbreaking feeling a woman can go through. The longest 30 seconds of a wait, the most excitement you will ever feel, or the most sadness you may experience. When you try and try and try with no results happening it can lead you to a bottomless pit. As I tear up from writing this I also feel strength from it. I just have to remember you’re God and I am not. 

So I tell you this, don’t let the results get you down. When that positive sign happens to show up, embrace that blessing and share that with your spouse. If the results aren’t positive do not let that weaken your faith. Keep the faith. Keep the love between your spouse going. Keep hope in your heart.

Keep trying and always know you’re not alone in this journey. 

You’re Enough

Happy Sunday Everyone!

I went to church today and it got me thinking about something from the sermon. How many times a week do we criticize ourselves? Think about what we should of accomplished instead of thinking about the things we did achieve? 

I’m guilty of this. We’re so hard on ourselves even when we’re acheieving so much in life, it never seems good enough. Take a step back and breathe. Enjoy living in the moment again and just enjoying life. Let go of the worries and stress from our lives and concentrate on what we have. We are all so blessed in life, now let us bring that joy to others! 🙂