Sometimes I believed that healing from grief would bring me relief. Oh how wrong I was. Healing has felt like breaking my internal being open. The pain that was healing, had resurfaced. The grief. The sadness. The anger. The despair. You feel like you are falling apart when you thought you were putting yourself together. It has been messy. It has been painful. Yet, this is the way to heal. To go through the break and slowly put yourself back together. The survival of life slowly turns into living again. Just breathe in again, keep going.