The ability to be soft

Looking back at my life I realized that I was never given the ability to be soft and flow with life freely. Learning how to relax. How to go with the flow. I was always forced to live the life on full demand. I was always on survival mode. I was always the one being relied upon not the one to rely on others. I was meant to show I was okay at all times, down to the point I have perfected my own poker face. Never the one to show a crack of weakness. The energy it has taken to show everyone I was the strong one has turned into my greatest nemesis. I am learning to tell people I am not okay and that it’s actually okay not to be okay. Take the weight of your shoulders. This is not yours to carry. Its time to rest and give yourself grace.